Session Start: Mon Jan 03 20:15:44 2005
Session Ident: ^john^
[20:18] hello John... have u heard about drugs like LSD which can cause ppl to feel "united with the universe", and realise that we are all "one organism"?
[20:18] 122. The sixth type of psychedelic experience has been called by such names as psychedelic-peak, cosmic, transcendental, or mystical. Some of the psychological phenomena which are said to characterize this experience, are: a sense of unity or 'cosmic oneness' with the universe; a feeling of transcendence of time and space; a deeply felt positive mood of joy, blessedness, love, and peace; a sense of sacredness, awe and, wonder; a feeling of profound theological or religious awareness; a feeling of insight into reality at an intuitive, nonrational level; an awareness of things which seem logically contradictory and paradoxical; and a belief that the experience is beyond words, non-verbal and impossible to describe. The full peak experience, in its entirety, does not occur in the majority of individuals, is usually transient, and does not last for long in its full intensity, although it may have persisting effects on attitudes an
[20:18] http://www.near-death.com/experiences/lsd01.html
[22:01] <^john^> yes.
[22:02] <^john^> But it is far from what it is being described.
[22:02] <^john^> I have told Sangha about OBE too when he told me his friend is able to see his own body during meditation.
[22:05] <^john^> In fact Baba Ram Dass (not exactly sure whether is it him) used to be a Harvard Lecturer in psychology. He experimented using LSD to induce mystical experience.
[22:06] <^john^> He was dismissed because of that.
[22:19] oh.. icic
[22:19] <^john^> Zennith, the experience of Thusness is not what that is described by them.
[22:20] <^john^> It is nothing close if u believe me.
[22:20] <^john^> how is one able to understand.
[22:21] <^john^> I just written something today.
[22:21] icic
[22:21] har?
[22:21] written wat
[22:21] <^john^> my meditation.
[22:22] oh icic.. wat is it about?
[22:22] <^john^> 03.01.2005
[22:22] <^john^> How could anyone understand?
[22:22] <^john^> The crying, the sound, the noise is buddha.
[22:22] <^john^> It is all the experience of Thusness.
[22:22] <^john^> To know the true meaning of this
[22:22] <^john^> Hold not even the slightest trace of 'I'.
[22:22] <^john^> In the most natural state of ILessNess,
[22:22] <^john^> All Is.
[22:22] <^john^> Even if one said the same statement,
[22:22] <^john^> the depth of experience differs.
[22:22] <^john^> The is no point convincing anyone.
[22:22] <^john^> Can anyone understand?
[22:22] <^john^> Any form of rejection
[22:22] <^john^> Any sort of division
[22:22] <^john^> Is to reject buddhahood.
[22:22] <^john^> If there is a slightest sense of a subject, an experiencer
[22:22] <^john^> we miss the point.
[22:22] <^john^> Natural Awareness is subjectless
[22:22] <^john^> The vividness and clarity
[22:22] <^john^> Feel, taste, see and hear with totality
[22:22] <^john^> There is always no 'I'.
[22:22] <^john^> Thank you Buddha, You truly know.
[22:23] <^john^>
[22:23] <^john^> It is difficult to understand the subtlety.
[22:23] icic... v nice
[22:25] <^john^> 02/1/2005
[22:25] <^john^> Without 'self' oneness is immediately attained.
[22:25] <^john^> There is only and always this Isness. Subject has always been the Object of observation.
[22:25] <^john^> This is true samadhi without entering trance.
[22:25] <^john^> Completely understanding this truth. It is the true way towards liberation.
[22:25] <^john^> Every sound, sensation, arising of consciousness is so clear, real and vivid.
[22:25] <^john^> Every moment is samadhi.
[22:25] <^john^> The tip of the fingers in contact with the keyboard, mysteriously created the
[22:25] <^john^> contact consciousness, what is it? Feel the entirety of beingness and realness.
[22:25] <^john^> There is no subject...just Isness.
[22:25] <^john^> No thought, there really is no thought and no 'self'. Only Pure Awareness.
[22:25] <^john^>
[22:26] <^john^> Zennith, it is meaningless to talk about anything. Just practice hard.
[22:27] icic...
[22:27] <^john^> The depth of emptiness cannot be measured.
[22:27] ok
Session Close: Mon Jan 03 23:30:08 2005



Dying to be Me by Anita Moorjani

-- I bought this book from a neighbourhood bookstore and have only glanced through it. Would recommend it. Not about Buddhism, anatta or emptiness, rather it is about a fascinating account of how someone got stage 4 cancer, died, had NDE (near death experience) and paranormal experiences such as accurately witnessing and being aware of what was said in other rooms and locations, entering other realms and visiting dead relatives, realized I AMness during the NDE, came back alive and was in a PCE-like state afterwards, and talked about how she healed herself (from stage 4 cancer to cancer being undetectable in 2 weeks) with cosmic energy (similar to Reiki), etc etc. Like I said I have only glanced through but it is quite fascinating that I bought it.

This is a New York Times Bestseller book.

Oh I also bought the Chinese version for my mom. I know she will like it.

https://www.amazon.com/Dying-Be-Me-Journey-Healing/dp/1401937535?fbclid=IwAR2lonTvYEqcRJiRKFHzDhonIpzDSlWiYr6xZ48j_GDzzx8HY9qVAtM7zbI
Someone I know recently asked me for a suitable meditation method as that person is experiencing chronic pain and mindfulness of breathing and body have caused more awareness of that pain that is hard to bear. Although an advanced practitioner may choose to remain mindful of pain until one experiences a state of transcendence devoid of duality and fabrications, I do not think it is a suitable advice for beginners.

For someone with such conditions as chronic pain (and even those without may choose to practice this), I recommend that they practice Awareness Watching Awareness. Turn your attention away from body, mind and world towards Awareness being aware of itself as I AM alone. John Tan (Thusness) confirmed with me that this method is suitable for the person.

Basically, if one sense door is not suitable (say, bodily sensation) you may need to choose another sense door. The I AM door is the subtlest mind of clear light, formless and unperturbed by the pain and afflictions of other sense doors. It is therefore a suitable candidate for meditation and contemplation, for realization and developing mental stillness and stability.

Told that person to read this and get this book:

https://albigen.com/uarelove/

https://www.amazon.sg/Direct-Means-Eternal-Bliss/dp/1937995895/ref=mp_s_a_1_5?keywords=eternal+bliss&qid=1578027429&s=gateway&sr=8-5

This is also similar to the “turning the radiance around” of Shurangama Sutra and Zen Master Chinul, et al.
Dieter Vollmuth runs a spiritual blog in German https://dieter-vollmuth.de/

Conversation from https://www.facebook.com/groups/AwakeningToReality
    • I have a Question to this text from here:
      http://awakeningtoreality.blogspot.com/…/presence-and-natur…
      "If we observe thought and ask where does thought arise, how does it arise, what is ‘thought’ like. 'Thought' will reveal its nature is empty -- vividly present yet completely un-locatable. It is very important not to infer, think or conceptualise but feel with our entire being this ‘ungraspability’ and 'unlocatability'. It seems to reside 'somewhere' but there is no way to locate it. It is just an impression of somewhere "there" but never "there". Similarly “here-ness” and “now-ness” are merely impressions formed by sensations, aggregates of causes and conditions, nothing inherently ‘there’; equally empty like ‘selfness’."
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      In the above Text is stated, that thought is unlocatable.
      But when I watch thoughts and other perceptions, I have a very clear and sharp impression of where they come from. They arise in the body consciousness in or near the Hara.
      I can clearly feel how they penetrate from "outside" to "inside" - or from "inside" the hara to "outside" the hara - and then bubbles to the head, where they show their content.
      The content can also be seen through very sharp concentration - it is like catching it and looking directly into it.
      I also feel that the penetration of the perceptual bubbles into the hara is taking place JUST BEFORE a sound is heard or a picture is seen or thought is experienced. It seems that the hara is the producer of all appearances - like a film projector.
      This is not a delusion - it is as clear as feeling the left arm. If the feeling-concentration is very sharp, then it is much clearer than the feeling of the left arm.
      Does anyone have similar experiences?
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      • Hale OHerren Where are thoughts before they are in the hara?

        What’s it like, the creation of a thought? Is the thought slowly created or does it appear fully formed?

        What is it that links the sensation in the hara to the thought appearing? Or is there just more story about time and space? Does the sensation in your abdomen know the sound of a bird chirping? Does the thought “I know this sound” hear the sounds? Do your eyes create visual appearances? Does your tongue create taste? Or is the sound of bird chirping exactly as it is, where it is? What links all this together?

        Where is the line that divides inside the head versus outside the head? Check each sense field.

        Where is the mind? Is it inside the head? Where does thinking occur? Can you visualize a something simple in front of you? Can you imagine the sound of traffic far away?

        Where is a thought when it is here? Is it something solid and fixed or is it hollow and ephemeral like a dream. Where do thoughts go? What is it that knows this? Can a thought perceive something else, another thought perhaps? Do you have thoughts that are not dependent on other circumstances, events and perceptions for their appearances or is the hara the sole creator?

        Does the body experience or is the body just another experience? In your experience, is the sight of your hand made out of atoms and molecules or is it color? What is seeing other than color appearing? Is there congruency in the body or is there just a thought which links up various sounds, smells, sensations and so forth and labels them “body”?

        I don’t doubt what you experience, just bringing doubt into the conclusions that you draw from that 😊
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      • Dieter Vollmuth - I read your questions and after that the field seem to expand
        I wrote, what i felt and saw:

        - The whole field is sound, vision
        - All sounds and visions all sense-data are like hollow/empty bubbles with virtual-data-content
        - There is no one seeing and hearing - only vision and sound
        - Bubbles seems to bubble up from the hara-center but also from the whole field
        - The whole body is nothing else as hollow bubbles with feelings and other perceptions
        - the whole field is perveiving or better: perceptions
        - the divine sound (nada) is heard through all perceptions
        - There are no real objects -> form is foam
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    • Hale OHerren What is the field? Is it something tangible? A container perhaps? Where are the limits and boundaries to this field? Or is “field” just another label for seeing, hearing, touching etc?

      Does hearing take place inside of this field? Are sounds inside the field? What’s the difference between hearing and sound? What’s the difference between the field and sound? Is there even a field at all?

      Why the need to label something “divine”? Is it ok for it to be just as it is? Or do we need to give it a name?
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    • Dieter Vollmuth There is no inside and no outside, so there are no boundaries. So, sound can not be inside and not be outside.

      The expression "field" seems to be pure conformity - because if there are no borders and no inside and outside, then there is no field, because for something to be a field, there must also be a "no field".

      I unconsciously saw the "field" as a background. But if there is no field, just the perceptions - wherever they are - then it is unnecessary to use the word "field" and also to assume a background. There is just "that". Amazing.

      The nada is called the "divine sound" - but it is not necessary to give it a name because it is simply there.

      The "I am" had been pretty deconstructed because since month it began to flicker and become inconsistent. It "kicked" me out of the honeymoon, so to speak. But somehow I always assumed it as a "background" without realizing it. Only your questions brought some movement in there. Thank you!
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    • Soh Wei Yu Dieter Vollmuth Good insights. There is indeed a borderless, boundless (as well as centerless, nondual, luminous, transient, ephemeral, empty, etc) quality to awareness/experience in its purity. This will become more and more apparent as your experience matures and as insight matures and becomes effortless. It is an intense, out-of-body (more like mind-body-drop than a literal dissociative OBE experience, it is completely nondual and not dissociative in any way) experience of limitless expanse of luminosity, but as manifestation. However the boundless quality is often reified into a larger container and then all perceptions may seem to merely arise 'within' the field so to speak, this becomes one mind. But it need not be reified into one mind, reification happens due to lack of clarity of deep insight. But as you have rightly seen, the field is not a background, it is just manifestation. There is nothing containing anything -- no container.

      Good work. Anyway I was just just reminded of this: https://awakeningtoreality.blogspot.com/.../the-unbound...
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  • Soh Wei Yu Thusness, 2013:

    "there is a very intense and much deeper state i assure u...but there is clear understanding that the manifestation is it....however awareness is like an unbounded and limitless expanse field

    the luminosity is intensely clear

    the experience is like Non-Dual Awareness broke lose and exist as a unbounded FIELD

    there is a difference in seeing sound and a hearer and realizing sound as awareness itself

    u cannot focus and there cannot be any sense of effort
    there cannot be any sense of boundaries

    just itself

    u must be very very stable and mature in the anatta state

    and u cannot be in an enclosed room...

    it is the effortlessness and crystal clear transparency and intensity of luminosity...

    but duality must no more trouble the practitioner, phenomena is clearly understood as the radiance...so nothing is obscuring then in total effortless and emanation arises and the expanse just continues"

    On how this differs from one mind:

    "one mind is subsuming

    therefore there is a sense of dual

    in this case there isn't

    it is like a drop of water landed on the surface of a clear ocean. the nature of water and ocean are one and the same...nothing containing anything

    when sounds and music arise...they are like water and waves in ocean...everything is it"
  • Soh Wei Yu Dieter Vollmuth http://awakeningtoreality.blogspot.com/.../rigpa-and...

    Rigpa and Aggregates
    (Also see: Dzogchen, Rigpa and Dependent Origination)

    From Dharma Overground, Dharma Dan (Daniel M. Ingram):

    Dear Mark,

    Thanks for your descriptions and analysis. They are interesting and relevant.

    I think of it this way, from a very high but still vipassana point of view, as you are framing this question in a vipassana context:

    First, the breath is nice, but at that level of manifesting sensations, some other points of view are helpful:

    Assume something really simple about sensations and awareness: they are exactly the same. In fact, make it more simple: there are sensations, and this includes all sensations that make up space, thought, image, body, anything you can imagine being mind, and all qualities that are experienced, meaning the sum total of the world.

    In this very simple framework, rigpa is all sensations, but there can be this subtle attachment and lack of investigation when high terms are used that we want there to be this super-rigpa, this awareness that is other. You mention that you feel there is a larger awareness, an awareness that is not just there the limits of your senses. I would claim otherwise: that the whole sensate universe by definition can't arise without the quality of awareness by definition, and so some very subtle sensations are tricking you into thinking they are bigger than the rest of the sensate field and are actually the awareness that is aware of other sensations.

    Awareness is simply manifestation. All sensations are simply present.

    Thus, be wary of anything that wants to be a super-awareness, a rigpa that is larger than everything else, as it can't be, by definition. Investigate at the level of bare sensate experience just what arises and see that it can't possibly be different from awareness, as this is actually an extraneous concept and there are actually just sensations as the first and final basis of reality.

    As you like the Tibetan stuff, and to quote Padmasambhava in the root text of the book The Light of Wisdom:

    "The mind that observes is also devoid of an ego or self-entity.
    It is neither seen as something different from the aggregates
    Nor as identical with these five aggregates.
    If the first were true, there would exist some other substance.

    This is not the case, so were the second true,
    That would contradict a permanent self, since the aggregates are impermanent.
    Therefore, based on the five aggregates,
    The self is a mere imputation based on the power of the ego-clinging.

    As to that which imputes, the past thought has vanished and is nonexistent.
    The future thought has not occurred, and the present thought does not withstand scrutiny."

    I really found this little block of tight philosophy helpful. It is also very vipassana at its core, but it is no surprise the wisdom traditions converge.

    Thus, if you want to crack the nut, notice that everything is 5 aggregates, including everything you think is super-awareness, and be less concerned with what every little type of consciousness is than with just perceiving them directly and noticing the gaps that section off this from that, such as rigpa from thought stream, or awareness from sensations, as these are golden chains.
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  • Dieter Vollmuth Thank you, Soh, for your Answers!

    Since last night, the body has much more "holes", than "points of reference". It seems to be transparent with some "points of fog" flying around there.

    Oddly enough, the vibration does not become faster, but much slower. it seems like the vibration is seen in slow motion. But it's probably the other way around - the resolution has increased drastically.

    There are no thoughts - this is pure experiential. The "points of reference" are flying around and flicker and are interwoved. It is a "bunch of flickering points" without knowing what that is really. Only that. "That" fills the whole "field of experience" - or better "that" IS the whole "field of experience".

    The experience is very stable because the mind feels like stone. Five years ago, there was a series of experiences in quick succession. The first was a fusion with a "radiant black mass" in "a womb in the body". The black mass was recognized as "I AM" - and in melting into it "I" was lost.

    A few days later there was a jump from a cliff to nowhere. Then the experience of consciousness, massive like a mountain. This was followed by an experience of being the entire "world-spanning" consciousness, so fine that it was almost not noticable.

    The feeling that is now here is both the "consciousness as a massive mountain" AND the "expansive fine 'no-thingness' of consciousness" together.

    stone=stable
    no-thingness=expansive wide-ness
    "matter" = "flying points of reference" = "radiance"
  • Soh Wei Yu Dieter Vollmuth

    By being the entire world spanning consciousness, do you mean the world is embraced by consciousness or the world itself is the radiance?
  • Dieter Vollmuth Soh Wei Yu The latter. I can see nothing, that radiates - only points as radiance
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  • Soh Wei Yu Yes good. The former is one mind and the latter is no mind.

    No mind is made effortless as anatta insight arises, matures and becomes very clear to be “always already so”
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  • Dieter Vollmuth Soh and Hale: Thank you again - that was here all the time - but I have not seen it because of the misleading net of words and concepts. 😘
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  • Dieter Vollmuth So, each "thing" or "point" is nothing other as a "piece of consciousness" or in other words: consciousness IS the substance of things.

    Or better: consciousness appears as a unending stream of appearing and ceasing "points of reference"

    Much better: Consiousness is the mechanics of arising and ceasing of appearances. Because that is an action, not a "substance".
  • Soh Wei Yu Yes you can say so, but I would be careful of the term “substance” as it implies some changeless essence, a view of inherency.

    Reading this article by Alan Watts might clear things up:

    http://awakeningtoreality.blogspot.com/.../alan-watts...

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    • Dieter Vollmuth Darkness is not a metaphor - because exactly with this darkness or "radiating blackness" "I" was melted into and therefore disappeared.

      And consciousness is also not a substance of something but more the "mechanics" of arising and ceasing of appearances. "Substance" is really not a good word for consciousness, because it has a notion of "permanence" or "realness". It is more a fluctuating happening, action.

      Oh man - the things are quickly becoming clear by itself - without any effort.

      There is only looking - and knowing in the same instant. Its absolutely breathtaking...
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    • Dieter Vollmuth there is blowing (action, verb) but not "wind" (noun, concept)

      "Wind is blowing" is a concept - because I can only feel the "blowing" on the skin, not "Wind".

      hahaha - in the article is the same: verbs, not nouns.

      If the "body is going" there is no body going, there is only alternating feeling of "foot-pressure", "arm-swinging" and "eye-seeing" etc.

      There is no person lifes its live - there is only living and in that it seems, that sometimes arise a feeling like "I am that, which is living" or "that is my live". But there is only life living itself at this point and at all points.

      It is simply an ongoing stream of actions, without an actor - and nothing else. It is so clear, like seeing the left arm.
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    • Dieter Vollmuth Last night I felt that I was kidding myself all the time.
      Before falling asleep, there was an absolutely desperate feeling: "Either I finally see what's really there or I'll die." That seems to have unlocked something...
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    • Dieter Vollmuth Ahh - now I know, what "suchness" really is: the direct feeling, like "foot on the ground", without an intermediate. The verbing or acting without an actor - or the feeling without a feeler. A direct knowing without knower.
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    • Soh Wei Yu Well said.

      “I am telling the first and second stanza must go hand in hand to have real insight of anatta even for a start. You must have these 2 aspects of insight in anatta. So what is anatta? means when you penetrate no-agent, you are effectively developing your direct insight. That is not reifying anything extra. That is direct insight into suchness. So that when you see 'Self', there is nothing but aggregates. When you see 'weather', there is nothing but the changing clouds, rain… when you see 'body', you see changing sensation. When you hear sound, you see the DO [dependent origination], then you see how the 2 fold emptiness are simply one insight and why that leads to 一合相 (yi4 he2 xiang4; one aggregated form). If there is no insight but cling to words then you missed the essence. That is, the gaining of insight on the 2 stanzas is not to think only of 'Self'” - John Tan, 2011
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      ...

      Dieter Vollmuth Soh Wei Yu When there are dreams, it is more a "half-dream-state" or "half-wake-state". Consciousness is here but the body lie there like a corpse. And then there are visions of mechanics of the universe for example.

      My actual state is:
      - Day-dreams: absolutely not here
      - Imagination: Zero, no pictures, impossible to "make" them
      - Night-dreams: could real be forgotten

      - Memory: really bad. Eg: If i leave home or simply don't look at my wife and she is not talking - in the same instant she is totally forgotten. If she don't call me by phone - she is forgotten until i come back home and see her again.

      - Consciousness: The normal state of consciousness here is >90% simply awake, clear, present, nearly thought-free, silent, empty, free floating.

      - Percveiving: On the surface "interpretative without thoughts" and at the same time the underlying vibrations, nada, pressure surges, colors etc. It is more direct than before: "not I hear sound" or "hearing sound" - but more "only sound".

      - Feeling: Most of the time here is simply freedom and silence. Nothing special. Sometimes there is bliss but no clinging to it.

      I don't know, what that means, because i have no data of other people. Its simply that, what is present here.
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    Google translated article from Dieter Vollmuth's German blog:

    Awareness is not a container
    December 14, 2019 divo
    At the moment it looks like this: consciousness is not a field or container, but the things as they appear. Consciousness is also not the substance of things, but rather the mechanics of popping up and disappearing from unsubstantial phenomena. Firmness and permanence is part of the data of virtual reality, which appears as the “world out there with bodies”.

    The background field (I AM), which was fragmentary until yesterday, was deconstructed tonight and has disappeared. Now there are only networked points with gaps in between.

    On the surface, the body appears firm, solid and permanent - but a closer look immediately shows that it consists of strongly fluctuating, networked points. The deep, glowing blackness shines through the gaps, which has only been experienced as an “inner experience” for years and is now everywhere.

    There is nothing more to say about the conventional world, except that it is just the way it is. It cannot be denied as unreal, nor can it be confirmed as real. It is there in terms of experience - but only in the total view that all of these are just appearances (cinema film) and there is no one who sees them or can even change anything in the data content of the appearances can deep peace appear.

    The most amazing thing is that this view has been there all the time - but the intricate web of words and concepts has hidden the direct view of the real facts. Therefore, the view cannot be obtained - the obstacles must disappear, then it is there.

    What are the obstacles? Words, thoughts, concepts, ideas - which claim: "That the world is solid and permanent and that there are people who act in it and have to distinguish between good and bad". From a conventional point of view, this is correct - from the current point of view, the children's stuff!

    It's actually like watching a child playing in the sandpit and claiming that the sandcastle is a real house. But it's just sand, water and imagination ...

    The playing child, who pretends that his sand figures are real, shows the watching adults how they themselves mistakenly see the world. But the adults only see the mistake of the child who imitates them - but not their own mistake, because "of course the world is real, everyone sees that!" Yes, every superficial ignoramus sees it that way!

    As long as people hold on to this view and are content to see the world in this way, they are forced to suffer from it. This cannot be denied, because everyone experiences it firsthand. Not life is suffering, but to be seen wrong.

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